Pull Yourself Together

Being ill is such an awful feeling.Damn,I really have so much respect for people who suffer those real diseases.What I'm having now is really nothing compared to what they have.I had a first hand look, having to see them lie next to me, inserted with tubes which their fragile life and weak heart depends so much on. Damn,I think I would have just killed myself if i was in their position.To be injected daily ,to just lay in bed all day and just feel so helpless as the world moves on without you.I have so much respect for this people

I felt so helpless and miserable.My whole body weak and hell,at that moment,a loaded gun would have looked so bloody friendly and nice.I'm still recovering as i type this post.I hope i will pull through this ordeal.