Everyone is running away...

I've been feeling awfully different lately.My body doesn't feel normal.Its like theres this something inside that slowly destroying me and soon it will kill me. I feel wierd.

Holiday is in 2 weeks time and I'm kind of looking foward to it.I need a good break away from everything but also to work on some friendships that seems to be fading away slowly. Its like as if they are withdrawing from me. I feel I've faulted and should be blame for whats happening now.

I'm so sorry.=(